I’d be lying if I told you that this has been a good week. I have looked forward to this week since the day Keith left for his deployment. This is my last week without him. I thought that I would be spending it preparing for his arrival, finishing up last minute projects, and being just plain happy as I looked forward to him being home in a matter of days as well as being filled with relief knowing that our time apart was almost over.
Things have taken quite a different course. I am still looking forward to him coming home of course, and still busy preparing for his arrival as well as preparing for his parents’ visit. But, my heart has been very heavy. It started out with the dogs going to the shelter, a change I am still grieving over. I have not stopped missing them since I took them. I know that in time it will get better, but it sure does sting right now! It has been much more difficult than I ever thought it would be.
Then yesterday, my dad lost his job. Our economy is bad and we are very close to a recession (according to President Bush). My dad worked for a small airline company, and they had to make budget cuts, he was one of the budget cuts. I am sad for them, I worry for them, and am carrying that around in my heart as well.
Kate, who was doing very well behavior wise, has now become difficult again. Of course, it could be that I am having a hard week, and so things that weren’t so bothersome before are now. She is just doing a lot of normal things that 3 year olds do, but this week they are more un-nerving than they usually would be as I am so anxious about everything going on.
If I can just get through these last couple of days. I’ll have help with Kate soon, and my best friend will be home to help me deal emotionally with everything that is going on and be the shoulder I need to cry on.
I am praying for strength and peace for myself, and that my dad would be blessed with a new job quickly. I know that God will see me through as he has done so many times in the past, and I know he has a plan for my dad too. I just pray that in the mean time, God would just help us all to cope and have a positive outlook.
I am praying for you my friend. Just know that you are not walking alone each day. Jesus is always right beside you walking with you, and He is there to lean on when it all seems to be too much. You can always come over here too. I KNOW how you feel about the dogs. I have done what you have and it does get easier, although it still hurts wondering.
I will be praying for you, and for Kate and for Keith to make a smooth transition. This will be difficult for him also, as I am sure you already know. Know I am here if you need me.
In HIS Steps,
Kim